I’ve made some dumb mistakes.
I’ve often lost my way, tripped, fallen.
I’ve been weak in faith.
And this morning I’m sad about it.
But I still hear His voice, small and whispering, yet rushing, running– the open-armed voice of Love.
I want to beat myself, hide, hang my head and refuse His love.
But you know Him. He won’t let me.
This morning He led me to the passage in Luke 17 when Jesus talks about the Kingdom of God. In my state of sick-to-my stomach self-condemanation, replaying my sins over and over, He brought me to the verse, “Remember Lot’s wife.” Now, this is going to be taking the verse out of context a bit, but I know God is talking to me this morning…”Remember Lot’s wife, Jill. DON’T LOOK BACK. It will make you crumble. Look ahead, look to Me, the Maker of heaven & earth, and I will be your strength. Know that you are forgiven and that My kindness has led you to this blessed place of humble repentance. Know that EVEN TODAY I can use you to bless others.”
I thought that just maybe, by sharing this, I might bless you.
I am worse than I ever thought, and more loved than I could ever imagine. I am in awe of that this morning.