It was dark the morning the doctor called in January, 2001. I was 38, had 6 sons–ages 9 down to 1.5, home schooled, and my husband had been in his new job, in our new city, only 2 years. Life was busy. But that morning life stopped.
” sad to tell you.” “unusual cells.” “mammogram, ultra sound, biopsy.” the boys clattered around me, breakfast buzzing, diapers changing, charles putting on his tie. i was in another time zone, inwardly screaming to be released back into the chaos of the day.
the destruction of my body and spirit has left deep scars even to this day. i have never felt that i have been restored to the person before the scars and i know that is part of the plan. scarred people, aware of the deep pain of this world, often see the scars of others more quickly and possibly bend the knee more readily.
Today I came across this story. Another “Jill’s” story and how she is using it for good. She calls her video “The light that shines,” and as I thought about that I thought of the verse in John 1:5, “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.” Today, if there is a shadow of darkness in your life, remember that it can never, ever extinguish the light of Christ in your soul. If you feel fearful, different, ashamed, tired, imperfect, unimportant, unappreciated…turn to the light. Do not walk any deeper into that cave. Turn to the light.
This is the testimony of one lady who is shining light through and out of her darkness. One thing I love is that this woman’s friend speaks not just of the struggles of the scars of breast cancer, but also about the scars of being “different” as a woman in any way. Watch the video: